Dust ❧ Talk about your past.
iifff i go into details n stuff it’ll b e really loong so i’m just gonna’. try to sum i t up w/o typing a bunch? idk, prolly won’t workk
as far as i know, my father hasn’t ever really been there for me. he used to ignore me when i was a child/was constantly out at “work” (wwith his girlfriend) while my mom stayed home. she started drinking to get my dad’s attention, but it didn’t really work and she ended up becoming addicted. this led to her giving my brother and i to my father, and telling him to take them off her hands while she gets herself together. he did that (and sorta’ refused to give us back later, so we’ve been in a court fight for like 6 or so years), and for a little while we stayed in my home state. but after maybe a year or smthn, we moved up to washington for my dad’s work, i think. we stayed there for a year, my stepmom got pregnant during that time, and then we moved to hawaii. we bounced around there a lot. i think we moved to? three or four different locations, idk. i know that during one year, i got the chance to stay with my mother in california (my brother wasn’t given this option) simply because my father didn’t really wanna’ see me anymore, i guess. so i stayed there for a year, then went back with my dad. in 7th grade, on april 1st, my dad got pulled over when taking me to school. the police found out he had some warrens overdue or smthn and so he was taken to jail for the day, and i was taken to school with one’a the police men. after i got home and saw my father wasn’t yet back, i decided to give my stepmom a call, who ended up being my mother. so, she found out about the situation and booked a plane ticket literally the day i told her about stuff, and when she and her wife arrived, the y saw that my brother and i were sorta’ being li ke.. eaten alive by fleas, i guess. my brother had staph infection and i was close to getting it, so my mom ‘n her wife took us from my father and we stayed with them at a hotel. a few people visited us and talked with us so they could decide who we go w. my mom won, so we’ve been with her since. my dad has been on and off fighting for us in court now, and he won’t rly give up.
it’s almost summer, and my parents have a court date set for next week, wednesday. i don’t wanna’ go visit him ever, so i really hope the hearing goes in our favor. there’s so much more detail i could go into, but that’s the gist of it, i guess!
Ink ❧ Write a poem and post it.
I ACTUALLY REALLY LOVE WRITING POEMS!! I’VE WRITTEN A LOT!!! her,es one. this was one i had to do for school with vocab words, but i still really like it. u can find the definitions for the weird/out of place looking words on dictionary.com!!
if there’s love in outer space,
it’s you, whom i’d embrace.
without you to keep me stable, my head circumvolves
my thoughts spin it ‘round, and like formication, hallucinations of your hands around me plague my every breath.
i am a phillumenist, but even my fire doesn’t warm my heart.
you’re like a variorum, or a bible; you only have one set of true feelings, but there are many ways to interpret them.
you’ve passed, though. your soul only lives on within me.
if this damned chronometer would just let me be a cheater, so time could rewind and return you from ashes to flowers—
but that won’t happen.
and though the icy remnants of my once kind heart threaten to form a sastruga,
i’ll keep thoughts of you close
and dream of meeting you in the stars.
